Sunday Bonny Sunday
February 17, 2008
Sometimes when I’m just home reading and watching movies all day long, I’ll put on red lipstick. No other make up, just the red lipstick. It makes me feel good even though I’m in my tee shirt and lounging pants. And my hair is pulled back nicely with an updo. Just a little lift for a lazy day.
And a lazy day it’s been. Let’s see we had Valentine’s Day and now this holiday Presidents’ weekend with tomorrow off work. I should be doing 100 other things but all I wanted to do is enjoy a day where I had no obligations to do anything but eat and shower and exercise. I haven’t had one of those weekends in a long time. And a Sunday at that, a nice sunny Sunday where I could sit at my kitchen table and read in the sunlight and watch the outside activity. I’ll miss this place just for that, for the peace that comes with a quiet Sunday full of sunlight and open windows for ruminating and reading and drinking lots of hot tea.
And watching movies. I hate to say it but that’s what I missed most about my expanded cable, was to find that movie I hadn’t seen in years but really enjoyed. Like “A River Runs Through It.” It’s such a good film. It’s so poetic. There was another film I saw this year that reminded me of poetry. It was “Away From Her.” Every frame a piece of poetry and every bit of dialogue chosen with care and purpose. Telling a story, some wonderful human story of ordinary heroes and the marks that they leave on our lives and how we affect each other, that is an achievement. I, of course, can’t write like that and I may never in my lifetime but I’d sure like to keep trying.
I’ll be moving soon out of this dwelling. I feel excited about it and where I’m moving to is a wonderful new place, at least I hope so. I feel very good about it anyway. I hope I’ve given a lot of love to this space and I hope I leave with the love I’ve tried to put into it. And I hope my new place is filled with love and that it will serve me just as well as this one has. It is time for change though in my life, radical change, from this limited way of thinking to a more expansive way of thinking. Even if it’s just adding cable channels, it’s all about opening up a greater world for my self, my life, and one that’s been long overdue. And I just want to embrace that and find in this day some sense of peace about it all and that in spite of what I think may be lacking in my life or how unsatisfied I’ve always been with myself, this peace tells me I did something right, that I did more right than I thought I have, in fact, I did good.
Sometimes when I’m just home reading and watching movies all day long, I’ll put on red lipstick. No other make up, just the red lipstick. It makes me feel good even though I’m in my tee shirt and lounging pants. And my hair is pulled back nicely with an updo. Just a little lift for a lazy day.
And a lazy day it’s been. Let’s see we had Valentine’s Day and now this holiday Presidents’ weekend with tomorrow off work. I should be doing 100 other things but all I wanted to do is enjoy a day where I had no obligations to do anything but eat and shower and exercise. I haven’t had one of those weekends in a long time. And a Sunday at that, a nice sunny Sunday where I could sit at my kitchen table and read in the sunlight and watch the outside activity. I’ll miss this place just for that, for the peace that comes with a quiet Sunday full of sunlight and open windows for ruminating and reading and drinking lots of hot tea.
And watching movies. I hate to say it but that’s what I missed most about my expanded cable, was to find that movie I hadn’t seen in years but really enjoyed. Like “A River Runs Through It.” It’s such a good film. It’s so poetic. There was another film I saw this year that reminded me of poetry. It was “Away From Her.” Every frame a piece of poetry and every bit of dialogue chosen with care and purpose. Telling a story, some wonderful human story of ordinary heroes and the marks that they leave on our lives and how we affect each other, that is an achievement. I, of course, can’t write like that and I may never in my lifetime but I’d sure like to keep trying.
I’ll be moving soon out of this dwelling. I feel excited about it and where I’m moving to is a wonderful new place, at least I hope so. I feel very good about it anyway. I hope I’ve given a lot of love to this space and I hope I leave with the love I’ve tried to put into it. And I hope my new place is filled with love and that it will serve me just as well as this one has. It is time for change though in my life, radical change, from this limited way of thinking to a more expansive way of thinking. Even if it’s just adding cable channels, it’s all about opening up a greater world for my self, my life, and one that’s been long overdue. And I just want to embrace that and find in this day some sense of peace about it all and that in spite of what I think may be lacking in my life or how unsatisfied I’ve always been with myself, this peace tells me I did something right, that I did more right than I thought I have, in fact, I did good.
posted by Maria @ 7:59 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home